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The Passion of Christ - Portrait of Yeshua by JAF-Artwork The Passion of Christ - Portrait of Yeshua by JAF-Artwork
Acrylic paint on Canvas
15x20 inch
Feb 02, 2015
Sold to The Vintage Church Bristol United Kingdom

This will be the hardest painting I've ever done. Painting every details I've gone through psychological, emotional, and spiritual exhaustion. There were times I was crying while painting his wounds particularly his bruised right eye. That's why it took me weeks and weeks to finally finish the wound details cos I can't focus for more than two hours with nothing but all these shades of red I used for blood. It takes a lot in me. My journey of painting the wounds of Christ caused me sleepless nights. When I started painting his eyes I wanted it to look like He is actually looking at you, talking to you. I wanted you to see what I saw. I saw my sins flashed before my eyes. The kind of monster who crucified Him. Who caused every blood He shed. The monstrous doubt, hate, lies, greed. We have our own monster inside us. There will be times that you'll have to face it. And I think I did. Though it will always lurk in the darkness of my despair but I have the courage to face it now if I ever encounter it again. I saw my soul's journey, the pain and happiness I felt along the way. The down fall and the rope to keep holding on.

The reason I painted the face of the wounded Christ is for you to see your own sins and find redemption, your fall and find courage, your pain and find peace. The courage to carry your own Cross. When I first read the old testament I feared God. I was scared of him. Scared to face him for I will die. I know I'm not worthy enough to see his blinding light. But when I saw the Passion of Christ 11 years ago everything changed. I painted a picture of Jim Caviezel as Jesus in the movie Passion of Christ.  A film by Mel Gibson. A picture perfect film. Sometimes words just penetrated our brains and leave without our permission. But a picture stays longer and can produce a thousand other words. The movie Passion of Christ opened a lot of windows to see your very soul. To have a glimpse of your own true reflection. To summarize your journey and the roads you've taken since. With a question are you one of the people who cried for Yeshua? Or are you one of the people behind the crucifixion? Some people see it as a violent film. I don't. That film awakened my sleeping heart. I cried like a baby watching that film. It only shows who Jesus really is. Yes I do love seeing pictures of smiling Christ but sometimes we needed to see His pain to wake up.

Jesus carried and died on the Cross to define the word Forgiveness. He created the word Sacrifice. He offered us Hope. He simply explained the unexplainable, irrational, unseen connection we call Love. When we talk about God's wrath and his commandments I feel nothing but Fear. When we mention Jesus name I feel nothing but Love. From the Strict God of the old testament Jesus introduced me to a Loving and Forgiving God.

I forgot, and yet He remembers. I walked away, and yet His footsteps says that He carried me. I thought He left, and yet His fingerprints are all over the place. I bargain, and yet He gave me both. I'm not perfect and yet He embraces me. We are sinners, and yet He forgives.

For us Artists Painting is an adventure and this wonderful adventure is now painted in one of the story-telling-canvas of my soul.  

This is my journey of looking into the eyes of Jesus Christ. To feel his pain and to find some comfort in the light of his eyes.

It's been months after the day I sat down with a blank canvas and a paint brush. I didn't even know I could paint it. Painting every details and fabric of the Passion of my Savior never meant to pleased anyone who will see it. Because this is not about me or my techniques. This is about the one who saved you and me. My struggle became my adventure. Painting it I was reborn as an Artist. Looking at it saves me every single day. Now it's hanging on a wall thousands of miles away. It's now part of (The Vintage Church) The Book of Luke Asphalion Art Exhibition in Bristol United Kingdom. Hoping it will heal more wounds like it healed mine.

To all your wonderful, heart-melting comments,
I don't know how to thank you guys enough. 
I had trouble figuring out what is Daily deviation. I'm ashamed to say it took me hours to figure out what it means. 
Anyway, for all the comments honestly I cried while reading some of them. It's a powerful feeling I can't explain. It's beyond amazement. Reflecting the same tears and pain as mine is more than I can ask for. Knowing you can see what I saw, you can feel what I felt fulfills the very core purpose why I painted this portrait. Thank you for letting me. Thank you for walking this same road with me. Thank you for crying with me. I wish I could kiss the very fabric of the soul of every single one of you. May you have a Blessed Journey my friends. May it be an awesome one. It maybe painful? yes but it's worth the pain. I hope The light in Jesus eyes will give comfort underneath that pain. A love we can never see with our naked eyes. Just remember... You are Loved.


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Given 2015-02-05
The Passion of Christ by JAF-Artwork

"Besides being technically brilliantly executed the amount of personal pain transferred from artist to the painting itself is huge. This work is personal journey for the artist, who deviated significantly from their usual medium, thematic and style to deliver brilliant, compelling work. Facing ones own sins, regrets and transgressions while painting something like this is definite to leave a mark. This work is also seeking for redemption for the artist, as well as journey of understanding ones own faith. There is seeking for forgiveness, to lighten ones soul, there is a pain one has to bear. There is hope and promise of redemption." ( Suggested by SandraPelly and Featured by MidnightExigent )
dakky2772 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
This is unbelievable!!! You are super talented!!!
Rinaldi-Pin-Up Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2016  Professional Traditional Artist
I'm at odds with this one, my compliments on your craftsmanship as it is well painted, but I suffer to acknowledge Christ depicted in such abundance of gore, one needn't be sacrilegious to the image of the Lord to imagine the suffering- these types of images glorify an excessive violence not appreciated in the Gospel or any serious follower of the faith...
 To make matters worse, you have depicted Our Lord doing the closed eye image, which has serious Satanic complications (Illuminati, Crowley, Monarch/MK Ultra, Thelema, etc...)- I think it's important for serious artist's wishing to portray religious figures to at least have the most basic understanding of iconography and semiotics before tripping all over the original intent of the art.
 Other than that, good job- carry on!
Pjittrik Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017
But what if he has a thorn through his eye? (A genuine question)
JAF-Artwork Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I hope you find time to read my description my friend. To see the truth and my journey of painting this portrait. And I pray you'll find peace in the end. Don't confuse yourself with symbolism for I suffered the same when I first educate myself about The Illuminati but I've learned that it's all about the truth and intention. This painting is a mere portrait of His Passion, His Truth, His Love for you and me... May you have a peaceful Journey my friend..
Vehement-Crusade Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2016  Professional Artist
No, the :icontriangleplz: is not about Truth or Good Intentions. It's about buying/selling souls and serving paganism/satan. Their path is a path of destruction. Do not be deceived, for they are dedicated to falsehoods and are driven by evil.

Christ is the ONLY Truth, and only those who know Him understand what Good truly means, for God is GOOD. And it is from Him alone we are able to do Good. Just how it is Written, we are able to Love because He first Loved us; even so, we are able to do Good because He first did Good to us. But without God, all "love" ideas are shadows/illusions, and without God no one can be Good or illuminate what Good is. 

Do not be deceived. Be as wise as serpents and as harmless as a dove, for you are as a lamb sent forth into a world of wolves.

God bless you. Repent, The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand. :heart:
JAF-Artwork Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
What I meant to say some people are just exposing this secret organization. That is the intention I am pointing. Some are saluting and selling their souls but some are exposing and fighting them. My intention for this truth is to share my journey of finding Love in Jesus nothing more. Don't overanalyze things that you sometimes mistaken for their symbol cos that's what they confuse us... This portrait is merely base on a true passion of christ by Anne Emmerich who suffered all the stigmatas. Please do read my description for this portrait my friend. Bless you.
PaladinPizza Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2016  Student General Artist
wow this is pretty awesome!
aericmon Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
disturbingly realistic and creepy. actually it was worse. he'd have lost 2/3s of his beard and his face was scraped horribly.
EtaniaVII Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
THAT is impressive.
RobertoDS Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2016
i did not see the movie but this painting is simply amazing :) (Smile)!! , even if a bit disturbing!
Blarts203 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2016
Thank you. Thank you so much. I don't know what else to say... this really helped me, more than I can ever say. Thank you.
Elchanan Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are has been featured here ->…
Elchanan Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful work!
AngelAndDevilMartial Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
I LIke
markguimbao Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
wow galing!
PawnShopAkuma Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2016
I thought this was a photo. Great job. Glory be to God :)
ChristinePresley Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awesome work!!
NekroGothicMaster Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2016  Professional General Artist
It looks fucking amazing!!! I love it!
AlphaLordCalypso Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow... it's beautiful and sickening at the same time...
Mr-Moon-Light Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2015
That look... Just like during the movie, I can't take my eyes off
malexart Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is amazing realism! wow! great job!
DonJohrian Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2015
His face and wounds look so real ...
Sethyel Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2015
l'épine dans l'oeil me boulverse un peu... Très beau dessin, le meilleur !
Ban-Sidhe Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
absolutely stunning but your words touched me as deeply as your art...
AlejandroDMarco Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2015
Is a pleasure for the sens, the work with the face is amazing
TealDoodler Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2015  Student Digital Artist
This is truly amazing, I have no words for this. Gives me chills
rougeballoon Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm really glad I stumbled upon this. Although it hurts, it's unimaginable. It's so malicious and obscene what happened to our saviour. But he made the great sacrifice.
I think you really captured the essence of his pain, his sacrifice for those that he loved. The main thing about this picture that strikes me though, is the description you made about how you found it difficult to paint this masterpiece. I understand completely and in no way is it your fault. This fills me with love as I can acknowledge many of the things our Lord Saviour has endured for US! God Bless for this magnificent piece of art!  
 Heart - Free 
Nanoraptor Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Amazing! Heart 
bcr8tive Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Professional General Artist
Very intense - this made me cry. Obviously well done. :+fav:
BowlFreak Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2015   Traditional Artist
this is an awesome painting....i know he was bestowing blessings on you while u were doing this!!!!Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap love it!!!
msluzhelena Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015
omg so beautiful, you did an amazing job
Rg-Nat Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2015
I don't know wether to cry about the breath-taking depiction of the One that saved us all, or your comment on this piece of art.
I'm stunned. Congratulations for your work, you and your talent are incredible. Please, keep going!
stvwoe Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
...awesome work on this and your others!  you're an inspiration...  I'm just about to finish my 9th painting (acrylic)
keight Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015
Thank you so much for sharing all of this with us. Yes. I am including your description in that "all of this". As a painting, it is beyond beautiful; as a soul-forging journey, it is totally worth every moment of it. Thank you for letting me know you are walking this same road with me. As you said, just remember... you are Loved, and He never leaves us to be alone. A Blessed Journey to you, too, my new-found sister.
GrasOne Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Can I use this image?
Bartoleum Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2015
Amazing! your painting,…and much more, the One you painted.
pennyspencil Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
omg...I cried..nothing to say..
mclaranium Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015
artistic, so good, very impactant,
excellent contrast colours,
a very good painting.

i dislike this kind of scenes, to me its some gore.

by the way,  we all admire this one.
Shalladdrin Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Bravo! This is intensely beautiful and thought provoking, and your description made me tear up. Thank you for sharing your process and struggle. 
lavenderl Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Congratulations on the well deserved Daily Deviation!  This is really wonderful.  God bless you.
menslady125 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2015  Hobbyist Filmographer
Great movie.
DarkStormGTS Featured By Owner Edited Feb 9, 2015  Student words can describe...
Amazing work though, I must say.
JMMUSS0326 Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2015  Professional Artist
I really thought this was real
CryptikFox Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
wow.... great piece of work....

Praise our Lord and Savior 
GrafiteFingers12 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
This is a spectacular piece that shows your amazing God-given talent. Thank you for painting such a moving and heart-wrenching piece.
Karontye Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
oh nooooo my dear Jesus =(
I can't believe acrylics can be so awesome!
PukingrainbowsArts Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is absolutely astounding!! You have put a lot of effort and detail into this masterpiece, I can tell; all the way from the incredibly detailed painted thorns to the wounds! You've done a brilliant job of conveying the emotions through, from the painting and that lovely description. Overall , magnificent work! It's really touching, emotionally moving and  visually stunning! You should make this available as a print immediately , I'm sure a lot people will buy it!! Clap 
tony2016 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015   General Artist
 Wow! Faced with this image, any attempt to explain in words is overwhelmed by the awesome feeling. Huge work indeed. Wow! 
nin242 Featured By Owner Edited Feb 6, 2015
beautifullypainted and beautifully said
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